[He's already been out to do an apology run of his own and is looking pretty drained. When Crow approaches him on top of it, Lutha's first reaction is to flinch, despite himself.]
Mn. Don't mention it.
Wasn't really my place to speak up, but I figured it would be better to try and get things back on track than let it linger on something like that. [That backfired horribly, unfortunately.]
It's too bad it didn't work out, I don't think that was a bad instinct.
[ Crow shrugs loosely. ]
Anyway, I'm not here to roast you for the sins of your past— especially for the ones I have no part in. That's none of my damned business, anyway. But I figure it wouldn't hurt if you knew at least one person appreciated what you were trying to do instead of getting angry about the rest of it.
...What I was trying to do doesn't matter much if I'm still an asshole about how I go about it, right? [It's oddly sincere. Maybe it's just because he's tired.
...]
That's what I'm getting from everyone else, anyway.
[He lets out a long exhale. No use getting his temper all fired up again over everyone else. He's extremely frustrated, yes, but it's not anyone's fault besides his own.
...]
...Thank you. [It's quiet, a little awkward, and he tries to shrug it off.] Getting tired of trying to do anything useful in those meetups like everyone keeps asking of me, so... it's nice to hear something stuck, I guess.
[ Crow tucks his hands behind his head, rocking lightly back and forth on the balls of his feet. ]
The times when being an asshole gets results are pretty few and far between in a group environment. "You catch more flies with honey than vinegar" and all that. Which is pretty rough to pull off when vinegar's all you've got.
[ He shrugs lightly, untucking his hands from his head and spreading them apart. ]
But speaking from a personal level, I can't say it wasn't a little frustrating to get some overblown reaction from an offer to help.
Heh. Well, August seems like a decent guy overall. He's so....
[ Crow pauses for a moment, searching for the words he's looking for. ]
....normal, I guess? I don't understand half the shit he says and his reaction kinda pissed me off, but at the same time... It's almost comforting to see someone that upset about it. Like oh yeah, there are people who can look at things and go "hey, that's pretty messed up."
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That they have so little to worry about otherwise that they can bothered with shit like that like someone ought to, right? [Safety might bring that sort of change, maybe. It's a stretch for him to make, but...]
Yeah. I guess I could understand.
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...You'd have to ask. You get into a lot of bullshit if you decide to guess. [speaking from experience... haha] At least Jun saw that, gave some insight.
Yeah, you two seem to get along about as well as oil and water.
[ He shrugs slightly. ]
I wouldn't say I'm a better person for it, though. We just haven't found a reason to clash yet. I guarantee you that sass would piss me off if I hated the guy.
Considering oil and water is a great fucking way to start a fire, then yeah, I'd say so. [what]
I don't hate the kid. Hell, if he wants to throw that shit at me in private, then he can bitch all he wants there. [It's the timing, juxtaposed with the fact that he would get openly raked across the coals for pulling the same stunt, that has him irritated. Would he deserve it? Probably. But he can't help but feel pettily sour nonetheless.]
At least you can admit you have things you like about him.
Sure. Something like that. [It's curt, a very deliberate attempt to cut the topic off. He would prefer not to reminisce considering he keeps getting thrown into the ocean or stuck out in the rain.
As for Crow's question, Lutha only gives him a dry look in return.]
I have a feeling you're going to share regardless of how I answer.
If you didn't wanna talk at all, you really should've just told me to fuck off.
[ He rests his hands behind his head. ]
Buuuut anyway, my advice is pretty much this: Just keep smiling no matter how pissed you are. It throws the other guy off and you can gain an advantage off of that.
I had a little more on my mind than telling some stranger to leave me alone in the middle of a battlefield. [Like not having a rain induced panic attack, stuff like that.
As for Crow's answer?]
No. [It's pretty much immediate. Not happening.] I might be insufferable, but I'm not a liar.
Glad to hear you have something that works for you. But pretending you're something you're not just isn't worth it after a while, in my opinion.
[Not lying, especially about who you are, is a thought so utterly foreign that it barely even computes for Crow. But he shrugs loosely at that response. ]
Suit yourself. You've gotta do what works for you.
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Thanks for the assist earlier, by the way.
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Mn. Don't mention it.
Wasn't really my place to speak up, but I figured it would be better to try and get things back on track than let it linger on something like that. [That backfired horribly, unfortunately.]
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[ Crow shrugs loosely. ]
Anyway, I'm not here to roast you for the sins of your past— especially for the ones I have no part in. That's none of my damned business, anyway. But I figure it wouldn't hurt if you knew at least one person appreciated what you were trying to do instead of getting angry about the rest of it.
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That's what I'm getting from everyone else, anyway.
[He lets out a long exhale. No use getting his temper all fired up again over everyone else. He's extremely frustrated, yes, but it's not anyone's fault besides his own.
...]
...Thank you. [It's quiet, a little awkward, and he tries to shrug it off.] Getting tired of trying to do anything useful in those meetups like everyone keeps asking of me, so... it's nice to hear something stuck, I guess.
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[ Crow tucks his hands behind his head, rocking lightly back and forth on the balls of his feet. ]
The times when being an asshole gets results are pretty few and far between in a group environment. "You catch more flies with honey than vinegar" and all that. Which is pretty rough to pull off when vinegar's all you've got.
[ He shrugs lightly, untucking his hands from his head and spreading them apart. ]
But speaking from a personal level, I can't say it wasn't a little frustrating to get some overblown reaction from an offer to help.
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[Because honestly, he could see it going either way, but he's already put his foot in his mouth enough tonight.]
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August is an idiot. But best I can figure is that he means well enough with the shit he says.
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[ Crow pauses for a moment, searching for the words he's looking for. ]
....normal, I guess? I don't understand half the shit he says and his reaction kinda pissed me off, but at the same time... It's almost comforting to see someone that upset about it. Like oh yeah, there are people who can look at things and go "hey, that's pretty messed up."
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Yeah. I guess I could understand.
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[ He nods slightly. ]
But yeah, I might ask him about his world sometime.
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Uh-huh.
Can't stand it myself, so. Probably makes you the better person or something.
Not that he doesn't deserve to be listened to or anything. I'm just not the one for it right now.
[Because he has a temper issue and Jun hits all the wrong buttons just being as he is.]
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[ He shrugs slightly. ]
I wouldn't say I'm a better person for it, though. We just haven't found a reason to clash yet. I guarantee you that sass would piss me off if I hated the guy.
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I don't hate the kid. Hell, if he wants to throw that shit at me in private, then he can bitch all he wants there. [It's the timing, juxtaposed with the fact that he would get openly raked across the coals for pulling the same stunt, that has him irritated. Would he deserve it? Probably. But he can't help but feel pettily sour nonetheless.]
At least you can admit you have things you like about him.
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[ He doesn't address the rest because he's too distracted by this notion. ]
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[...Ah. Wait.]
... Right. You meant the kind around here.
[god he hates this place sometimes
He just.
Awkwardly gestures at the chemical scars against the visible skin of his neck and face. Take a guess, smartie.]
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Damn, sounds like there's some real shit going on where you're from.
[ But back on topic, Crow leans in and speaks in a stage-whisper, careful not to actually get in Lutha's space. ]
Wanna hear my secret, the way I deal when people are pissing me off?
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As for Crow's question, Lutha only gives him a dry look in return.]
I have a feeling you're going to share regardless of how I answer.
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Nah. I don't keep going if people don't wanna have a conversation. It's not my style. I'd be a hypocrite if I did.
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[He huffs out a breath.]
...I don't care if you want to share something. You just don't need to be so coy about it. [It's distracting.]
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If you didn't wanna talk at all, you really should've just told me to fuck off.
[ He rests his hands behind his head. ]
Buuuut anyway, my advice is pretty much this: Just keep smiling no matter how pissed you are. It throws the other guy off and you can gain an advantage off of that.
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As for Crow's answer?]
No. [It's pretty much immediate. Not happening.] I might be insufferable, but I'm not a liar.
Glad to hear you have something that works for you. But pretending you're something you're not just isn't worth it after a while, in my opinion.
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Suit yourself. You've gotta do what works for you.
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I wouldn't say it works. It's just what I know.
But like hell I'd ever try what you suggested. I'd get shot.